Hemm...

Akhir-akhir ini,gw frustasi.Banyak masalah yang gak bisa gw selesain.
Bingung mau gimana lagi?Oh god,help me please!
Masih kepikiran soal kemaren,
kejadian yang bikin gw PATAH SEMANGAT buat ngedapetin DIA

Pffiiuuuuh,kapan ya semua yang gw harepin bisa jadi KENYATAAN?
Masalah yang terus menerus memompa hidup gw tuh GAK ADA HENTINYA!!
Kalo semakin dalem diinget-inget,rasanya BOSEN HIDUP DI DUNIA..
Emang sih,hidup kita gak berarti kalo gak ada suka & duka.Tapi...
Berat rasanya buat nyelesain ini semua sendirian!Harusnya mereka ngerti dong,gw ini seorang REMAJA..

Butuh dukungan,kasih sayang,pengertian lebih,rasa keingin tahuan yang lebih,lebih mementingkan ego..
Sekali lagi,when??my dreams come true??
Tuhan,gw capek sama semua ini..
Gw pengen hidup normal!
Gw gak mau hidup gw jadi kayak gini!!

All of my sad story,can't i post here.I'm so sorry,cause i have a privacy :)

Gw,masih labil..emosi gw semakin gak terkendali kalo gw masuk sekolah..
Hupff,i know i strange..
But,i was very disappointed when i saw her with my beloved :'(
You can't understand myself!!
I'm confused?I LOVE U,but one side..I HATE U!

I can't forget u......

Ignorance - Paramore

If I’m a bad person, you don’t like me
Well, I guess I’ll make my own way
It’s a circle, a mean cycle
I can’t excite you anymore
Where’s your gavel? Your jury?
What’s my offense this time?
You’re not a judge but if you’re gonna judge me
Well sentence me to another life.

Don’t wanna hear your sad songs
I don’t wanna feel your pain
When you swear it’s all my fault
Cause you know we’re not the same
No, we’re not the same
No, well, we’re not the same
We’re the friends who stuck together,
We wrote our names in blood,
But I guess you can’t accept that the change is good
It’s good, it’s good

Well, you treat me just like another stranger
Well, it’s nice to meet you, sir
I guess I’ll go,
I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger
Well, it’s nice to meet you, sir
I guess I’ll go,
I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend,
Ignorance is your new best friend

This is the best thing that could’ve happened;
Any longer and I wouldn’t have made it
It’s not a war, no, it’s not a rapture
I’m just a person, but you can’t take it
The same tricks that, that once fooled me
They won’t get you anywhere
I’m not the same kid from your memory
Well, now I can fend for myself

Don’t wanna hear your sad songs
I don’t wanna feel your pain
When you swear it’s all my fault
Cause you know we’re not the same
No, we’re not the same
No, well, we’re not the same
Yeah, we used to stick together,
We wrote our names in blood,
But I guess you can’t accept that the change is good
It’s good, it’s good

Well, you treat me just like another stranger
Well, it’s nice to meet you, sir
Well, I guess I’ll go,
I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger
Well, it’s nice to meet you, sir
Well,I guess I’ll go,
I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend,
Ignorance is your new best friend.
Ignorance is your new best friend,
Ignorance is your new best friend.

Well, you treat me just like another stranger
Well, it’s nice to meet you, sir
Well, I guess I’ll go
I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger,
Well, it’s nice to meet you, sir
I guess I’ll go,
I best be on my way out

Brick By Boring Brick - Paramore

She lives in a fairy tale
Somewhere too far for us to find
Forgotten the taste and smell
Of the world that she's left behind
It's all about the exposure the lens I told her
The angles were all wrong now
She's ripping wings off of butterflies

Keep your feet on the ground
When your head's in the clouds
Well go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Go get you shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Ba da ba ba da ba ba da

So one day he found her crying
Coiled up on the dirty ground
Her prince finally came to save her
And the rest you can figure out
But it was a trick
And the clock struck twelve
Well make sure to build your home brick by boring brick
Or the wolf's gonna blow it down

Keep your feet on the ground
When your head's in the clouds
Well go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle

Well you built up a world of magic
Because your real life is tragic
Yeah you built up a world of magic
If it's not real
You can't hold it in your hands
You can't feel it with your heart
And I won't believe it
But if it's true
You can see it with your eyes
Oh, even in the dark
And that's where I want to be, yeah

Go get your shovel
We'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle

[x2]
Ba da ba ba da ba ba da
Ba da ba ba ba da ba ba
Ba da ba ba da ba ba da
Ba da ba ba ba ba ba ba

Lagi Brokenheart

Gw kalo masuk sekolah tuh emang paling maleeessss...apalagi ada skank girls yang ih-sumpah-nyebelin-banget-tu-orang !! Gw emang dendam pribadi tuh ama dia,cause DIA SLALU SOK-SOK DEKETIN GEBETAN GUA!!udah gitu pas gw pergokin,DIA MALAH SENYUM-SENYUM!!BANGSAATTTT!!!pengen banget dihajar tau gak!

Tapi,gw sangat sangat berharap DIA tau perasaan gw sama DIA tuh kayak gimana..gw pengen tau dia tuh sebenernya suka gak sih sama gw??kali ini gw cuma bisa berdoa semoga DIA JODOH GW *maksa bgt*..

Si skank girls itu mustinya dimusnahin aja pake bom atom!Dia sama kayak skank girls yang laen!MUNA!
Pengen banget suatu hari gw buang ke laut tuh orang!

Gw heraan,KOK BANYAK YA?YANG MAU JADI COWONYA??
Cowo jaman sekarang tuh emang KETERLALUAN!ngeliat cewe cuma dari fisik!

KALIAN NYADAR GAK??!!Otak tuh lebih berharga daripada KECANTIKAN!buat apa cantik kalo GAK PUNYA OTAK??!!
Lebih baik JELEK,TAPI PUNYA OTAK!! (baca tuh kenceng-kenceng!!)

Kenyataannya,cowo cuma BIKIN SAKIT HATI.
Tapi,COWO SMART YANG NERIMA KITA APA ADANYA gak bakal bikin kita banjir air mata..

HEY NERD GIRLS!kita butuh TIPE COWO YANG KAYAK GITU!kita sama sekali gak butuh COWO BRENGSEK!!

My Friend In Dukuh 03!!

hemm,gw lagi mood ngupdate blog nih!hoho..penegn nostalgia sebentar sama panggilan2 jaman sd dulu,hehehe ^.^v .. jangan tersinggung yah,tenang cuma masa lalu kok! :p

• M.Rizky(Kiky) as Dadang
• Ahmad Fadillah(Amat) as Tomat
• Al-Qadri(Qadri) as *maaf namanya terlalu kejaaam,gak bisa dishare disini :p*
• Chairul Fatah(Chairul) as Patah tulang (hehe)
• Delvian Evriany(Delvian) as Banana
• Endah Setya Arum(Arum) as *eng,buat arum gw gak tau di dijulukin paan,tapi suka dikatain "fikar" *
• Rizky Humaidi(Rizki) as Qinoy
• Rizky Herdian(Rizki*juga*) as Dodo
• Galih Setya Dharma(Galih) as Galler
• Rafif Nibatullah(Rafif) as Gigi
• Nurul Huda(Nurul) as Pele
• Noval Kalasuso(Noval) as *buat noval gw juga gk tau tapi dia suka dikatain "ayu" *
• I Gede Putu Ramadhani(Putu) as Made
• Azhar Afif Faisal(Azhar) as Tompel
• M.Kinan Naufal(Kinan) as Bayi gede
• Sihkuswardani(Fani) as Sirkus
• Venny Novebri(Venny) as Tambun
• Suci Sintia Putu(Suci) as Nyoman
• Aprilia Pratiwi(April) as Toge
• Oktavia Dwi Erywardhani(Okta) as Otak-otak
• Uki Lestari(Uki) as Kiting or Uki-Cililitan
• Winda Lestari(Winda) as Badak
• Linda Elma Tania(Linda) as Dora
• Rahayu Kencanawati(Ayu) as *ayu suka dikatain"opal or noval"hehe*
• Anita Damayanti(Nita) as Ayam
• Ferina Mahrifah Oktaviani(Ferina) as Dadang 2
• Clarissa Ruth Oktavia Nadya(Clarissa) as *iih ampun deh gak kreatip!masa "aa qadir" ?*
• Astri Rahma Putri(Astri) as Kuli
• Nadiah Kamilah(Nadiah) as *dia suka dikatain"si bayu,si bayu"hoho*
• Noviathea Rahmani(Novia) as Adam
• Gema Setya(Gema) as Bemo
• Teguh Santoso(Teguh) as Doer
• Wahyu Purwita Jati(Jati) as Balet
• Kukuh Bayu Aji(Bayu) as Bagol
• Ridwan as Bakwan
• Rahma Harry(Rahma) *waduh gw gak tau nih julukannya,anaknya pendiem bgt!kayak gak pernah ngomong aja!*
• Yobelin Yizreel(Yobel) as Zombie
• Zulfikar Rafifliano(Fikar) as Bejo

Namanya cukup ancur ya..tapi dari situ bahwa kita bisa membuktikan bahwa kita ini kompak!julukan gw gak ada cause gw sendiri juga gak tau!HAHAHAHA...please jangan marah,cuma lelucon aja kok,buat lucu2an ajaa..

Evanescence - Call Me When You're Sober

Don't cry to me
If you loved me
You would be here with me
You want me
Come find me
Make up your mind

Should i let you fall
Lose it all
So maybe you can remember yourself

Can't keep believing
We're only deceiving
Ourselves and i'm sick of the lie

And you're too late

Don't cry to me
If you loved me
You would be here with me
You want me
Come find me
Make up your mind

Couldn't take the blame
Sick with shame
Must be exhausting to lose your own game

Selfishly hated
No wonder you're jaded
You can't play the victim this time

And you're too late

Don't cry to me
If you loved me
You would be here with me
You want me
Come find me
Make up your mind

You never call me when you're sober
You only want it cause it's over
It's over

How could i
Have burned paradise
How could i
You were never mind

Don't cry to me
If you loved me
You would be here with me
Don't lie to me
Just get your things
I've made up your mind

Evanescence - Lithium

Lithium, don't wanna lock me up inside
Lithium, don't wanna forget how it feels without
Lithium, I wanna stay in love with my sorrow
Oh, but god I want to let it go

Come to bed, don't make me sleep alone
Couldn't hide the emptiness you let it show
Never wanted it to be so cold
Just didn't drink enough to say you love me

I can't hold on to me
Wonder what's wrong with me

Lithium, don't wanna lock me up inside
Lithium, don't wanna forget how it feels without
Lithium, I wanna stay in love with my sorrow

Oh, don't want to let it lay me down this time
Drown my will to fly
Here in the darkness I know myself
Can't break free until I let it go
Let me go

Darling, I forgive you after all
Anything is better than to be alone
And in the end I guess I had to fall
Always find my place among the ashes

I can't hold on to me
Wonder what's wrong with me

Lithium, don't wanna lock me up inside
Lithium, don't wanna forget how it feels without
Lithium, I wanna stay in love with you
Oh, I'm gonna let it go

Evanescence - My Last Breath

hold on to me love
you know i can't stay long
all i wanted to say was i love you and i'm not afraid
aah..can you hear me?
can you feel me in your arms?

holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
sweet raptured light it ends here tonight

i'll miss the winter
a world of fragile things
look for me in the white forest
hiding in a hollow tree (come find me)
i know you hear me
i can taste it in your tears

holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
sweet raptured light it ends here tonight

closing your eyes to disappear
you pray your dreams will leave you here
but still you wake and know the truth
no one's there

say goodnight
don't be afraid
calling me calling me as you fade to black

(say goodnight)holding my last breath
(don't be afraid)save inside myself
(calling me,calling me)are all thoughts of you
sweet raptured light it ends here tonight

(holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
sweet raptured light it ends here tonight)

Evanescence - Everybody's Fool

Lagu ini mewakili perasaan gw banget,menggambarkan sisi lain diri gw yg enggak pernah kalian TAU. Mungkin setelah lo denger ni lagu,lo bisa tau rasanya jadi gw tuh kayak gimana..

Perfect by nature
Icons of self indulgence
Just what we all need
More lies about a world that

Never was and never will be
Have you no shame? Don't you see me
You know you've got everybody fooled

Look here she comes now
Bow down and stare in wonder
Oh how we love you
No flaws when you're pretending
But now I know she

Never was and never will be
You don't know how you've betrayed me
And somehow you've got everybody fooled

Without the mask, where will you hide?
Can't find yourself lost in your lie

I know the truth now
I know who you are
And I don't love you anymore

Never was and never will be
You don't know how you've betrayed me
And somehow you've got everybody fooled

It never was and never will be
You're not real and you can't save me
Somehow now you're everybody's fool

Evanescence - Going Under

Now i will tell you what i've done for you
50 thousand tears i've cried
Screaming,deceiving,and bleeding for you
And you,still won't hear me
(Going Under)

Don't want your hand this time i'll save myself
Maybe i'll wake up for once
Not tormented daily defeated by you
Just when i,thought i reached the bottom

I dive again..

I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through
I'm going under

Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies
(So i don't know what's real and what's now)
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So i can't trust myself anymore

I dive again..

I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through

So go on and scream
Scream at me i'm so far away
I won't be broken again
I've got to breath
I can't keep going under

I dive again..

I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through

I'm going under
Going Under
Going Under
I'm Going Under

Evanescence - My Immortal

Terus terang,ni lagu bikin gw banjir air mata! *lebey* liriknya dalem. Maksud lagu ini mungkin untuk menghibur kalian yang ditinggal orang terkasih..

I'm so tired of being here..
Suppressed by all my childish fears..
And if you have to leave,
I wish that you would just leave..
Cause your presence still lingers here,
And it won't leave me alone..

These wounds won't seems to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase..

When you cry i'd wipe away all of your tears
When you scream i'd fight away all of your fears
And i'd held your hand through all of these years
But you still have...
All of me..

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now i'm bound by the life you left behind..
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All of the sanity in me..

These wounds won't seems to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cry i'd wipe away all of your tears
When you scream i'd fight away all of your fears
And i'd held your hand through all of these years
But you still have...
All of me

I tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all alone

When you cry i'd wipe away all of your tears
When you scream i'd fight away all of your fears
And i'd hed your hand through all of these years
But you still have...
All of me..

Hoahmmm

Hei sobat!gua udah lama nih gak blogging,biasaa sibuk di fb!!haha,makanya ett dong fb gua!jadi,lo bisa keep in touch sama gua!*bener gak sih bahasanya??haha*..
Oya,sekarang gua lagi rajin-rajinnya baca komik Miiko Series lho!Sumpah,ini komik kocik abis!!terus gua juga udah makin males berlama-lama didepan laptop.Penyakit autis gua sama laptop udah mulai berkurang.Gua baru nyadar "banyak hal-hal menarik diluar sana".Jadi kita gak melulu harus nongkrong ber-jam jam didepan laptop!yah,kalo lo lagi ngerjain tugas sih boleh-boleh aja,asalkan jangan cari kesempatan buat online yaa..nanti tugas lo bisa gak selesai!
Sekarang lagi musim ujian + musim puanas..haha maksudnya musim hujan.Di bulan maret ini,kakak-kakak dan adik-adik kelas kita sedang sibuk-sibuknya berkutat dengan kertas ulangan,papan ujian,pensil,penghapus,pulpen,lembar jawaban,dan kertas coret-coretan!
Sebagai suporter dadakan kita wajib dong mendukung mereka agar bersemangat menjalani rutinitas yang melelahkan seperti yang satu ini.Yap,EXAMS!mendengar kata itu bikin pusing n males-malesan ya,apalagi TO yang tiada hentinya membuat otak mereka semakin ruwet dan kusut(lu kira benang,kusut??)..
Bagus deh kalo mereka masih menemukan waktu luang buat refreshing sejenak ditengah suasana belajar yang ketat.Gua punya sedikit saran nih,karena gua paham perasaan kalian :)

- Gunakan waktu luang yang ada buat istirahat sejenak,supaya otak bisa kembali fresh.Pola pikirpun jadi lancar!!
- Jangan lupa minum Vitamin C supaya gak gampang sakit saaat badan mulai terasa lelah(gak lucu kan kalo menjelang UN malah jatuh sakit?)
- Usahain waktu belajar jangan bentrok sama jadwal istirahat lo
- Jangan pernah coba-coba buat BEGADANG di saat sibuk-sibuknya ulangan dan belajar,yang ada otak lo malah sering terforsir n gak bisa mikir deh pas ujian.(kalo udah begini,ujung-ujungnya pasti nyontek :P)
-Stop online!!di ulangan gak ada pembahasan tentang twitter,facebook,n blog!
-Ini dia nih yang paling penting,SHALAT TAHAJUD bagi lo yang muslim.Minta petunjuk sama Allah S.W.T supaya diberi kemudahan saat ulangan(Amin ya robbal alamiiin)

Segitu aja deh saran dari gua,semoga tips gua bermanfaat.Gua doain lo semua bisa masuk SMU or SMP favorit

Goodluck!

Buat Kamu Yang Kucinta

Sebelumnya,gua juga gak nyangka bisa cinta mati sama lo.Tapi gua sadar,cinta gak pandang bulu.Yang jadi pertanyaan buat gua,"apakah lo merasakan perasaan yang sama terhadap gua??".Gua bingung,gak tau mesti gimana lagi.Setiap saat,gua slalu mikirin lo.Baru pertama kali gua jatuh cinta sampe mikirin lo!Gua tau,lo gak pernah ngasih perhatian sedikitpun sama gua.Tolong,beri ruang buat gua supaya bisa memiliki lo.Gua pengen banget jadi orang yang lo cinta dan lo sayang.Tapi gua gak tau gimana caranya supaya bisa ngewujud-in itu semua??Gua gak agresif kayak cewek-cewek lain,gua juga gak keganjenan dan gak populer di sekolah.Gua tuh cupu.But,apakah orang kayak gua gak boleh ngerasain yang namanya jatuh cinta?pacaran?..Gua tau,lo tuh sering bercanda sama si J*****.Gua cemburu liat lo sama dia.Dia tuh gak tau malu!!udah punya cowok tapi masih aja gangguin cowok laen!Apalagi pas gua tau kalo dia udah putus sama cowoknya.Gua takut dia ngincer lo!Gua khawatir!Gua semakin takut kehilangan lo!Gua gak mau lo jadi milik dia!!Lo itu punya gua!!Gak boleh ada yang memiliki lo kecuali gua!!

Sumpah!!gua takut lo pergi dari kehidupan gua!!gua takut kehilangan lo!!gua pengen bisa memiliki lo seutuhnya!!Gua sadar kekurangan gua.Lo harus tau,gua cinta,sayang,n suka banget sama lo!!

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